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It's hard to find the words to describe the sense of grief that is creeping over me; from reading some of the comments in my earliest posts by people who've gone in real life (R.I.P.
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I can't believe that I can feel that much pain about something that often seems so ephemeral, but I feel like I'm torturing myself; wondering whether it's worth saving anything. I mean all that wondrous material lost when the willtara yahoo group disappeared; all those wonderful early fan sites gone.
It feels so pointless, yet I cannot stop because Right Now? It feels like all that's keeping me going.
I cannot even find the desire to write. I want to. I still need to. I am writing. But I always stop at some point, and it seems like I know I'm not going to finish it.
So why I posted this...
GRIEF
BY ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING
I tell you, hopeless grief is passionless;
That only men incredulous of despair,
Half-taught in anguish, through the midnight air
Beat upward to God’s throne in loud access
Of shrieking and reproach. Full desertness,
In souls as countries, lieth silent-bare
Under the blanching, vertical eye-glare
Of the absolute heavens. Deep-hearted man, express
Grief for thy dead in silence like to death—
Most like a monumental statue set
In everlasting watch and moveless woe
Till itself crumble to the dust beneath.
Touch it; the marble eyelids are not wet:
If it could weep, it could arise and go.

Goddess preserve,

Kerk Hiraeth
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Date: 6 Apr 2017 20:11 (UTC)Yeah, things always seem to come in great big batches...
I wrote a post here with handy tips - if you go to:
http://www.dreamwidth.org/manage/settings/?cat=othersites
You can add that little footer that directs people to DW for commenting.
And just keep hanging in there. One day at a time. And not everyone is leaving - there's a good group of people who are not bothered. (And considering the amount of data that facebook harvests, I'm not sure LJ isn't much less invasive...)
Anyway, yes, it's a sad time. Try to make sure you find everyone on DW - your flist over here should get bigger as the one on LJ grows smaller?
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Date: 6 Apr 2017 20:22 (UTC)It's getting too much for me.
Leaving LJ has been coming for a while, and the invasiveness is not, again there, the issue. It's the final straw that broke the camel's back. I just did not expect it to be this painful.
kerk